Well, this is mildly distressing

I may be getting a cavity back in the hole in my mouth (which is a tooth I had pulled a few years ago, and wasn't that just an ordeal). If it's there, it's in the space between my teeth.

Except, I've gone poking around back there, and it's not sensitive at all. Until I eat something and chew on that side, or use mouthwash or something. Then it's this little shot of agony that lasts for about half a second. If it's there, it's in a place I can't find. It's entirely possible that it's just that bit of my mouth that's sensitive because the extraction was so fucked up. I don't know, and it's bugging me. I can beg a few hundred bucks to go in and have it looked at, and risk spending money on nothing, or I can just deal and risk it actually being something that needs to be fixed. The only pro in this is that if it is a thing that needs to get fixed, I know from experience I can save money and forego Novocaine. I find that shit to be more unpleasant than most minor dental work. Actually, I think that extraction was the first time I had Novocaine since I was about twelve. Huh.

But still. What if it's nothing? What if it's not?


Argh.

Okay, Tumblr. We have to talk

I went onto Tumblr today and scrolled through the six new pages of my dash, and by the time I was done, I was actually really pissed off with it.

I watch two sorts of blogs: friends, and Loki / Tom Hiddleston blogs. Tumblr is supposed to be my happy place, where I can pretend that fandom is the way I knew it from the days of yore before concepts like Social Justice wormed their way into everything, creating an atmosphere of Stepford Fic, bullying, and self-loathing. I unfollow blogs that look like they're even going to start going that route. Luckily, my friends aren't inclined toward wank, so I've not come across anything terribly awkward.

I'm not saying that I don't care about some of the issues that get shouted about. But I just really don't want the shouting in my hobby, especially when that hobby is what I do to distract myself from all the crap that's going on in my own life.

But this is not what pissed me off today. What pissed me off today is the other attitude Tumblr seems to breed, and it's a very unhealthy attitude: this idea that it's Super Cool! and Awesome! to be immature, disruptive, or irresponsible. Or a bunch of other things. People there will believe anything, and the stupidest shit gets circulated like crazy. One post today was a screencap of an anonymous ask, where the anon talked about being attacked on the street with a knife, and then when the attacker saw their cutting scars, they dropped their knife and hugged the anon. I'm sorry, but I have a really difficult time buying that. There's just so much fishy and wrong about that, and I can't even begin to articulate what. But it had so. many. notes, and why? Why should people take the word of some anon like that? I'm sorry if this is unpopular, but that's exactly the sort of attention-seeking rubbish you hear in high school. I'd say the anon probably was in high school, but... I'm not so sure.

Especially since there are people on my dash I know to be in their 40s, and even 50s, who make and reblog posts about skiving off work because their favourite show gave them so many feels, or how they still have to check under the bed at night or whatever. I just don't even know what to do with that. That's really not cool of you, and it certainly doesn't give much faith in your ability to be a functioning adult. Especially when, before appearing on Tumblr, these people generally seemed like they had their shit together. Maybe not completely together; I don't think anyone can really claim that, but they weren't wailing in a pit of despair because their favourite woobie got a booboo last night.

Seriously, I thought I left all this shit behind years ago. I don't even know what to do about it, short of just starting to blacklist certain usernames or something.