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loki_of_sassgaardHow about a real post? One where I don't witter on about Tumblr.
I'm incredibly unhappy living here, for a lot of reasons. A big part of it is the loss of autonomy and freedom. It's not that I'm not allowed to go anywhere, but more that there's nowhere to go. I saw Gatsby the other week, and have not been out of the house since. Going to Gatsby required waiting for a day when there was a car available, and then getting someone to give me a ride to the cinema, and then coming to pick me up. There's no sidewalk on this road, and it can be a really busy road sometimes. This makes my choices either walk in the road and try not to get run over, or walk in the ditch, which is uneven and unpleasant for anyone. With a crutch, it's downright difficult.
Not that I was really going all over the place in Vegas, but I had that option. We lived about block away from a mall, three strip malls, Target, a few pubs, a comic shop, two supermarkets, and the main library branch. Not to mention right on three bus routes. Between them, buses ran every ten minutes. Now, buses in Vegas suck, but they're practically non-existent here. There's one route way up the road that runs once an hour. Only in one direction. The other 'closest' routes are all a mile away.
I've applied to so many jobs that the more I apply, the more I just want to give up, because I've not had a single one of them call back. So I don't even have the means to get out of here. I've had this problem for years already, because no-one wants to hire a guy who can't stand up for more than ten minutes at a time without back pain.
I've also gained so much weight living here it's ridiculous. None of my trousers fit anymore. All my shirts are starting to get really tight as well. Because I'm not going to the comic shop every Friday. I'm not going to the library every other week and dragging home a bunch of text books. I'm not doing circuits around the mall to go see what new shirts Hot Topic has. Robin Hood's gained a lot of weight as well. I've always been bigger than he is, and now he's started to wear my shirts because his don't fit anymore. When I was in high school, we used to walk to the cinema every weekend and catch the late showing of whatever was playing. We didn't even care. We saw the third Matrix about five times. The cinema is four miles away. I don't think I'll ever be able to manage that again, without some new knees, but I do need to get on the Stephen Fry weight loss programme. I've got plenty of audiobooks for it, and it's the time of year where the sun's up for about 16 hours, so there's plenty of daylight for it. I think I'm actually gonna try to start today, and just take a brolly with because if I wait for the weather, I'll never get out.
I'll need to find more audiobooks if I plan on doing this seriously.
I'm incredibly unhappy living here, for a lot of reasons. A big part of it is the loss of autonomy and freedom. It's not that I'm not allowed to go anywhere, but more that there's nowhere to go. I saw Gatsby the other week, and have not been out of the house since. Going to Gatsby required waiting for a day when there was a car available, and then getting someone to give me a ride to the cinema, and then coming to pick me up. There's no sidewalk on this road, and it can be a really busy road sometimes. This makes my choices either walk in the road and try not to get run over, or walk in the ditch, which is uneven and unpleasant for anyone. With a crutch, it's downright difficult.
Not that I was really going all over the place in Vegas, but I had that option. We lived about block away from a mall, three strip malls, Target, a few pubs, a comic shop, two supermarkets, and the main library branch. Not to mention right on three bus routes. Between them, buses ran every ten minutes. Now, buses in Vegas suck, but they're practically non-existent here. There's one route way up the road that runs once an hour. Only in one direction. The other 'closest' routes are all a mile away.
I've applied to so many jobs that the more I apply, the more I just want to give up, because I've not had a single one of them call back. So I don't even have the means to get out of here. I've had this problem for years already, because no-one wants to hire a guy who can't stand up for more than ten minutes at a time without back pain.
I've also gained so much weight living here it's ridiculous. None of my trousers fit anymore. All my shirts are starting to get really tight as well. Because I'm not going to the comic shop every Friday. I'm not going to the library every other week and dragging home a bunch of text books. I'm not doing circuits around the mall to go see what new shirts Hot Topic has. Robin Hood's gained a lot of weight as well. I've always been bigger than he is, and now he's started to wear my shirts because his don't fit anymore. When I was in high school, we used to walk to the cinema every weekend and catch the late showing of whatever was playing. We didn't even care. We saw the third Matrix about five times. The cinema is four miles away. I don't think I'll ever be able to manage that again, without some new knees, but I do need to get on the Stephen Fry weight loss programme. I've got plenty of audiobooks for it, and it's the time of year where the sun's up for about 16 hours, so there's plenty of daylight for it. I think I'm actually gonna try to start today, and just take a brolly with because if I wait for the weather, I'll never get out.
I'll need to find more audiobooks if I plan on doing this seriously.
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Date: 2013-05-31 07:01 pm (UTC)My parents' house without a car wasn't quite that bad, as in at least there was a bus, but when I couldn't afford to go on that each day my coping strategy was to just get out of the house once a day even if it was just something pointless and I couldn't go anywhere. Otherwise days just went 'No money, can't go out, stay at home, feel stale, parents come home and criticise me for not going out, feel crap, rinse and repeat'.
Could you do freelance art? You're ever so good at it.
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Date: 2013-05-31 10:52 pm (UTC)And I would, but my PayPal account is seriously fucked. Apparently in December, they realised that a previous account I had wasn't as previous as I thought, and they don't like you having two accounts open at once. I just wonder why it took them six years to realise that account was still open. I thought I'd closed it out in college. :|
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Date: 2013-06-01 01:00 pm (UTC)Also, job hunting sucks.
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Date: 2013-06-01 07:02 pm (UTC)I'm also trying to lose some weight, and the amount of people in my circle who are aiming for the same thing really helps me to stay motivated. If you ever need support, I'll do the best I can. I wish you the best of luck with your goals! And remember to keep it slow and safe. :)
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Date: 2013-06-01 10:13 pm (UTC)Our birthdays and anniversary are law, no matter how broke we are. Because sometimes, they have to be just to keep yourself sane.